Hais.... Feeling really lousy nw :( Randy ar Randy, time and time eu failed agn. Why? I really hate myself nw. For being so lousy, so useless ): Hw i wish i can go bang de wall and wake up my inner self. Why do i become lik tis when im faced in a relationship. Isit becoz i am scared to enter another relationship agn.... Or am i jus shy lik a coward. My heart is pouring, crying for not being somebody tat im suppose to be. Everytime i give myself hope everytime i fail. Haix... i really feel lik giving up. I noe i love you but im not acting according to my heart. Why? Can god tell me why? What is stopping me? Why cant i jus give eu a hug or kiss eu like what my heart tell me to do? WHY? I guess ur gonna be dissapointed in me. Im jus a guy who hav no guts....I feel lik crying nw but does it even help? No!!! Crying at myself for being useless. I really duno wad to do now. Its nvr been like this before. Why isit happening now. I duno how to face you anymore.................................